Thanks for having a guestbook. It’s like a nice opportunity to say hi and also thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Maybe I’ve read through or skimmed a dozen of your posts- with quite a few resonant feelings. Like “We want one thing, but we also want the opposite thing. I want reader sympathy, but I don’t want to be categorized as emo”
Similarly, I want to have a nice colloquy with you, but not really bore or annoy you (although I’ll be honest, maybe I care about you insofar as it affects how I will be able to get what I want. I’ve recently been reading about narcissism and I feel like I’m pretty typical. But, you shared your story, and I like you because of your honesty).
Anyways, the year of humbling is something I’ve been grappling with for years. “God thus began to awaken me from this illusion of self-sufficiency.” Waking up is so hard when the bed is warm and the world is cold. And from observation, I feel like I’ve lost the motivation for most aspects of my life.
So, that’s why one quote caught my attention “The greatest obstacle to my research—namely, the lack of motivation—was miraculously taken away.” Can you advise me on motivation? Namely, your ability for example, to not study for a Stats test for 3 days, and still pull of a 4.0? To procrastinate and still do when it needs to be done? When lasers need to be displayed, to go on a few hours. That determination. What is that? One of my fears is asking “why?” can debilitate progress. I don’t mean to make it slow yours, but if you have any ideas.
My problems are very hard for me- maybe I’m not asking the right questions, and I have no idea if it’s even fair to ask a stranger. But, here’s a shot in the dark.
Cheers